Thursday, September 30, 2010

viii - Day 08 – A moment, in great detail

He reaches down and takes the brass knob in his hand, swinging the door open.  It’s early fall and the evening air is cool, even more so due to the light rain and slight breeze blowing.  The street lights cast a vibrant amber-orange hue up and down the street.  Behind him, the door closes itself slowly, creaking as it swings in the last few inches.

The boards are smooth beneath his bare feet, slightly dusty, as he steps closer to the edge.  A small, jagged stone embeds itself into his heel, though not deep enough to pierce the skin.    His hands hold onto the railing as he looks out at the street, his gaze sweeping first one way, and then the other.  He idly brushes his foot along the bottom of the railing, and the stone falls away.  He stands there, looking out, leaning forward slightly and with one leg crooked behind the other.  His posture is relaxed, yet strangely intent at the same time.

The rain creates a blanket of muted white noise as it falls to the steps in front of him, the slick pavement, and the glistening cars parked along the quiet street.  He can hear cars as they drive along the main road, a few hundred yards away, the sound an infrequent modulation of the sound of the rain falling.

He looks up to the night sky and can see clouds overhead, darker amorphous outlines in a dark grey sky.  The rain creates halos around the street lamps.  He can make out the rain as it falls past the lights, brought suddenly into view, streaking lines of orange against the dark background.  The lines disappear momentarily only to end their journeys as rippling specks in the puddles across the street, as beads of water running down glistening windshields, or a rippling shimmer as the droplets are stopped by the branches of the maple tree overhead.

There’s a quiet peace to the evening, as if the whole world were still.  He takes a deep breath, filling his lungs with fresh air, and can feel his muscles relax.  The coolness against his skin is invigorating.  Nights like these have always made him feel … better connected to himself, to the world around him.  Peaceful.

A car passes by, the distinct sound of tires on wet pavement barely registering until the car enters his field of vision.  He can make out the driver’s face, bathed in a blue glow from the light of the car’s dashboard.  There’s a passenger in the seat next to the driver, apparent, though hidden in shadows, when the driver turns and speaks, lips mouthing soundless words.  They are looking for something along the street, and continue their trip, the red of the tail lights rolling slowly further away.

Broken from his reverie, he watches the red of the lights flare as the vehicle reaches the intersection and stops.  Then, after a moment of apparent indecision by the driver, the lights disappear off to the right and he is left alone with his thoughts and the rain.

One last look up at the sky, taking it all in, and a deep breath.  Then he turns, looking through the front window.  The light from the lamp in the living room lets him see a small corner of the room, nearest where the light is shining, where the light is brightest.  The door swings inward easily, and soon he is back in the brightness and warmth of the house.

Tuesday, September 28, 2010

vii - Day 07 – Your best friend, in great detail

Another one that's gonna be a bit tough.  My experiences posting personal information online hasn't been terribly good, so naturally I'm a bit reluctant to post anything too concrete about the people closest to me.

It's one part respecting their privacy, but I also think there's a bit of feeling that I couldn't do justice to the essence of their beings with mere words.  Anyone that's met my best friend, the shiny-headed gentleman to the left, will understand what I mean by that.

So, where do we go now that I've admitted I can only paint a limited picture?  The beginning is as good as anywhere, I guess.  We met not long after my family moved from one city to another nearly 4 hours away.  It was in the second grade, though our friendship wouldn't really blossom until a little while later.

By the time we were in the 5th grade we'd become pretty much inseparable and found countless ways to get ourselves into trouble - with or without each other's help.  I recall one instance in grade school involving that well-rounded forehead and a double pane classroom window.  I wasn't there to witness the event proper, but rumour has it that upon being challenged, he felt he needed to prove his assertion that he could indeed put his head through the glass.  He was, it turns out, correct.  There was much excitement on the schoolyard that day.

We attended the same school - if not always the same class - until grade eight.  Our little French school in the middle of an English suburb had sizable classes of thirty or so students each, but only one class per grade.  Everyone knew everyone else, and the teachers had plenty of time to devote to each student...not that they necessarily paid particularly good attention.  Which, upon further consideration, may not have been a bad thing.  We weren't necessarily cruel to each other, but it's not like young boys are exactly the fountain of good ideas, either.

After that, though, we drifted in and out of touch for most of the nineties.  We attended different high schools, so even though there was still a lot of extra curricular hanging out, growing friendships in different cliques inevitably meant more time doing stuff with other people.  After high school, we did a half-year program together in video production, which was a tremendous amount of fun (I got to direct a low budget live interview show and a music video of sorts) but ultimately didn't lead anywhere.  After that I moved 4 hours away, ostensibly to pursue a career in the recording industry, that didn't pan out as expected, only to move home not long afterwards.  Then it was his turn to move to another city for a while.

We got back in touch while I was in university, and ended up being roommates.  We lived above a Scottish Pub.  I'll let you do the math: lifelong buddies, university aged, living on top of a place that served alcohol.  There were some pretty good times.  He eventually fell for a mutual friend, moved out, and not too long afterwards the pub got shut down, my girlfriend at the time and I got evicted and I found myself alone.  After a couple weeks at my folks' place, I got an apartment in the same building as he and his girlfriend, on the same floor, so we were almost roommates again.  Only this time I could lock the door and protect myself from his drunken bouts of sleepwalking.

I moved away again a few years later, but fortunately this time we were able to keep in touch.  We don't get much of a chance to get into trouble anymore, which is probably a good thing.  But thank goodness for that wonder that is the Internet.  I may not be able to talk him into doing ludicrous stunts on a skateboard anymore, but that doesn't mean I can't fill his inbox with various absurdities I come across while meandering through the web.

Friday, September 24, 2010

vi - Day 06 – Your hobbies, in great detail


Truth be told, I'm a bit of a geek.  That sound you hear right now is the sound of my wife muttering "a bit of?" under her breath.  Thanks honey!  OK, fine, I'm a big geek.

I've been a gamer for nearly three decades.  My folks brought home our first family computer (a VIC 20! less than 1K of RAM, baby!) when I was six or seven.  It didn't take long for me to get hooked.  A couple years later, we upgraded to a C-64, the VIC 20's burlier older brother, and that was pretty much it for me.  The "family" computer soon found itself in my room and a lifetime of spending probably far too much time in front of a monitor was cemented.

At the time, this was well before the PC boom in the mid 90s, I never saw my affinity with computers as much more than a neat way to kill time, but if I could go back, I would probably tell myself to take it a bit more seriously and keep on top of it.  Whenever I put my mind to it I can get a machine to do what I want it to, but it's not as easy as it would be if I'd seriously taken it up.

Then again, this entry is about hobbies, not careers, and it's definitely the former rather than the latter.

Around the time I really started getting into computers I was introduced to science fiction and fantasy by my folks, and coincidentally a friend found a copy of one of the D&D rulebooks in his older brother's closet.  Thus my initiation into the ways of the nerd was complete, and a ongoing consumption of fantasy and sci-fi entertainment in all forms was initiated.

Unfortunately I tend to collect games rather than play games (a tendency that also manifests itself in another of my hobbies - music - which I'll get to later).  Like that guy that falls in love with a different woman every week, I seem more enamoured of the idea of playing a new game than actually, you know, going out and finding someone to play it with.

Having said that, I've picked up and played every single Star Wars game I've come across.  Ditto Star Trek (well, except that odd VHS Star Trek game we got for x-mas a few years ago), and the Lord of the Rings.

And last but definitely not least in the context of this blog, I've dabbled repeatedly in more creative pursuits over the last couple decades.  I started writing a long time ago, and if all goes according to plan you'll get to experience more of that here.  

In high school I picked up a guitar, and though it's amongst the things I "wish I'd taken more seriously when I was younger", I still practice and try to improve.  I figure on that count, I was never gonna be a rock star, and I've got a really long time left to keep getting better.  I've had demo studios in my house for the better part of a decade and a half now, but much like my collection of games, I seem to like the thought of owning the gear more than actually, you know, regularly using the gear.  Still, I've managed to record some stuff, and one of these days I'll try to check off the "record a proper album" box on my lifetime to-do list.  

I've also been known to create things in a more literal sense, as I love taking things apart, learning how they work, and building them.  My latest construction project is a combination of this hobby with music, as I attempt to build a guitar more or less from scratch.

And that, ladies and gentlemen, concludes our ten minute tour of geekdom.

Thursday, September 23, 2010

v - Day 05 – Your definition of love, in great detail

y definition of love?  These topics aren't getting any easier.  I've never really thought about love, so finding the words to describe how I feel about it is a bit of a daunting task.

First, let me start by describing what my definition of love is not.  It's not tumultuous in that Romeo and Juliet sort of way, you know, the Hollywood notion that being in love robs one of all sense.  It's always struck me as odd that the typical storybook lovers become so devoid of reason that they cease being able to operate in the world.  After all, you can't have a great love story without some terrible tragedy as a counterpoint, and how often are the lovers themselves the catalysts for their own downfall?

I once read a quotation to the effect that truly happy people didn't experience extremes of emotion, either good or bad.  The gist of it being that balance was true happiness and that suffering bouts of misery or ecstasy pointed to an imbalance.  I think I kind of feel that way about love.

Don't get me wrong, I fell completely and totally head-over-heels in love with my wife and spent a good while in the "holy cow, this is the awesomest thing ever" zone.  Ask anyone who got to hang out with us for the first couple years of our relationship.  It's like I was on to this really big notion.  This really, very phenomenally big notion, and for a while I was pretty happy just letting myself orbit in its gravitational pull.

At my grandmother's wake, I met an acquaintance of hers for the first time.  This woman, who had only ever heard my grandmother talk about me and my sister was moved to tears the moment she met us and that was my first hint at the sheer enormity of a human being's capacity for love.  My grandmother's love for her grandkids was such a monumental force in her life that it - even if only momentarily - was able to alter the trajectory of others' lives even after she was gone.

Though there are obvious differences between romantic love and platonic love, they both share a common trait of generosity.  There's also an element of self-improvement, what Hallmark would label "wanting to be a better person", that's undeniable.  Love requires us to give wholly of ourselves, but is revitalizing, energizing, and empowering in return.

I'm fortunate to share an incredibly deep love with my wife that encompasses all of that and more.  I think romantic love, apart from the obvious differences it has from platonic love, is the same, only bigger.  There are times where it's obvious she knows me better than I know myself, or from her vantage point she's able to ignore the self-eclipsing that happens when one is too emotionally invested to be able to take a step back from a situation and help steer me in the right direction.  I'm not the easiest book to read, but she knows me better than anyone else does.

So, I guess in short, my definition of love is what I have with my wife.  Finding her (and convincing her to stick around) is the one thing I'm most proud of, because in all honesty, no one has a right to expect this kind of thing to happen.  Not only is it what I want, more importantly it always turns out to be what I need.

Wednesday, September 22, 2010

iv - Day 04 – Your music, in great detail

In my family, there's a longstanding tradition of answering a question with a question.  Lest this blog get backed up by another post that'll take far too long to vocalize, I present:

Answering a meme with a meme, part I:
30 minutes of music

Minute 01 - Your favorite song: "Push" by the Cure.  The guitar parts in this song just drive to the heart of me.
Minute 02 - Your least favorite song: Umm.  Having a hard time with this one.  Why waste brain space on something like this?  The only thing I can come up with right now is "Lady Lumps" by Fergie.  Ugh.
Minute 03 - A song that makes you happy: "Around the World" by Daft Punk.  I always smile when I remember an old buddy, Al, dancing around a pool table drunk acting out the dance moves from the video to this song.
Minute 04 - A song that makes you sad: "Hurt" by Johnny Cash.  An unlikely cover, but wow.  I identify with the Reznor version of this song, but Cash brings it to a whole new level.  If this song doesn't destroy you, you're not really listening to it.
Minute 05 - A song that reminds you of someone: There isn't just one, really.  Every important person in my life has at least one song I associate with them, as do some folks along the edges who could have been bigger players under other circumstances.  If you're reading this and you're curious, you can ask in the comments and I'll tell you what your song is.
Minute 06 - A song that reminds of you of somewhere: Umm, "Ostia" by Coil.  The white Cliffs of Dover, an area of England that's always held an interest for me, for reasons both mundane and morbid.  
Minute 07 - A song that reminds you of a certain event: "Drive" by REM was in heavy rotation on my walkman towards the end of high school and I'll always associate it with that transition period in my life.
Minute 08 - A song that you know all the words to: Pick a Cure song, any Cure song!  It's possible they're my favourite band, ever.
Minute 09 - A song that you can dance to: Give me a 120 bmp 4/4 beat, distorted (preferably ESL) vocals and analog synths and I can find a way to move to it (or make fun of it, or both).  But a special favourite of mine would have to be "Suspended" by Numb.  That Gordon guy really had a thing going and I'm sad he stopped making music when he did. 
Minute 10 - A song that makes you fall asleep: This actually isn't possible: if I like a song it'll hold my attention, and if I don't, it'll irritate me.  Either way, no sleep while there's music on!
Minute 11 - A song from your favorite band: "Disintegration" by The Cure.  I never understood why this one didn't end up on a single, it really deserved the extra attention.
Minute 12 - A song from a band you hate: "Two Princes" by the Spin Doctors.  Man, I hate those guys.
Minute 13 - A song that is a guilty pleasure: "Dancing with Myself" by Billy Idol.  Don't ask, I can't explain.  I had to go out and buy Guitar Hero 5 IMMEDIATELY after seeing that this song was on the track list, thanks to an episode of Castle.
Minute 14 - A song that no one would expect you to love: Man, I like all kinds of random stuff, and I get the sense no one really knows what to expect from me anyway, but I'll say, uh, "I'm on Fire" by Bruce Springsteen.
Minute 15 - A song that describes you: I'm hard pressed to think of a whole song that does an adequate job of describing me (what with my not having been the object of many...er, scratch that, any...musician's burning need to write a song).  These lyrics from "Standing Outside a Broken Phone Booth with Money in my Hands" by the "Primitive Radio Gods" seem apt:



Am I alive or thoughts that drift away?
Does summer come for everyone?
Can humans do what prophets say?
If I die before I learn to speak
Can money pay for all the days I lived awake
But half asleep?

Minute 16 - A song that you used to love but now hate: I have to say this isn't possible.  That part of me that really connects with a song never goes away or changes its mind.  The closest I come to this is having songs I'm not in the mood to listen to in the moment.  Right now, for instance, I'm not inclined to pop in any Cubanate.
Minute 17 - A song that you hear often on the radio: I haven't actively listened to the radio since, um, high school? So, no radio = no answer!
Minute 18 - A song that you wish you heard on the radio: See above.
Minute 19 - A song from your favorite album: Though The Cure is by far my favourite band, ever, my favourite album, ever, would have to be "The Downward Spiral" by Nine Inch Nails.  "Ruiner" is the first track that comes to mind.  The original is good, and the remixes are better.  Good fodder for my angstiest moments.
Minute 20 - A song that you listen to when you’re angry: "Electrocution" by Front Line Assembly.
Minute 21 - A song that you listen to when you’re happy: Another hard one.  I tend not to seek out music when I'm in a good mood, so I'd have to say whatever finds its way into the random shuffle on my MP3 player.
Minute 22 - A song that you listen to when you’re sad: "Inama Nushif" from the "Children of Dune" soundtrack.  Dune's my favourite book/series, and our family dog Harley died around the time they aired the Dune Messiah/Children of Dune miniseries on TV.  This haunting song, which I would have loved on its own merits, has the benefit of reverberating on several layers.
Minute 23 - A song that you want to play at your wedding: Too late!
Minute 24 - A song that you want to play at your funeral: Screw that noise, I don't believe in an afterlife, and I have a hard enough time imposing my oddball musical preferences on the people around me as it is.  Why would I do that to them if I'm not there?
Minute 25 - A song that makes you laugh: "Detachable Penis" by King Missile.  Take one part suburban express bus, one part maladjusted quasi-punky teenager, thirty parts business-suit clad bureaucrats, and one well timed airing of "Detachable Penis" on CKCU college radio.  Good times!
Minute 26 - A song that you can play on an instrument: My latest project is "Under the Bridge" by RHCP.  Not cause I like the song that much, but John Frusciante is a genius and I'm trying to pick up some of the seemingly effortless flourishes he brings to otherwise pretty simple chord progressions.
Minute 27 - A song that you wish you could play: "Cliffs of Dover" by Eric Johnson.  It's at the edge of guitar-god wankery but it's still a catchy tune.  Moreover, I think with enough practice I might eventually be able to get to play it.
Minute 28 - A song that makes you feel guilty: "RU486" by NCC.  I'm pretty sure I completely, 100% disagree with the contents of the lyrics (never been able to find them online, not that I'm that eager to know), but the music is really good, one of the better tracks to come out of the industrial scene a decade ago.
Minute 29 - A song from your childhood: "Abracadabra" by Steve Miller.  If I had a dollar for every time my younger sister sang that chorus when she was little, I'd be a very, very rich man.  I'd also be able to think of another song I associate with my childhood!
Minute 30 - Your favorite song at this time last year: "Push" by The Cure.  It's been tops for years now, probably won't change, it'll take a heck of a song to capture the same sort of emotional response.

iii - Day 03 – Your parents, in great detail




















They say a picture is worth a thousand words.  I hope couple thousand words or so worth of pictures will do.  However big an influence my folks have had - and I owe pretty much everything I am to them - I don't feel it's my place to tell their story beyond the beginning.  One day in the seventies, a scruffy, French-Canadian parking lot attendant scoundrel (with a heart of gold) met the fifth child from a very Anglo family, and somehow the whole thing worked.



Saturday, September 18, 2010

ii - Day 02 – Your first love, in great detail

It was called the Barrhaven Soccer Club, and we were introduced when I was 6 or 7 years old.  I can't say why my parents felt the need to sign me up for an organised sport, or why they picked soccer (OK, I can guess at the reasons for that last part: it was a relatively inexpensive summer activity which didn't involve 6AM ice time), but they did, and it was the start of a relationship that would go on to deeply affect me for decades.

For most of the eighties, I'd wait eagerly for spring to come around, because on top of the usual school kid's yearning for summer break, it also meant I'd get to chase a ball around a grass field for an hour and a half every week, plus practice time.  I got to be pretty good compared to the other kids, probably because I really liked doing it, helped along by the fact that I had a competitive streak.

Speaking of which, it served, often in retrospect, to help me learn about myself.  It really brought out the competitiveness in my nature.  Not a win at all costs sort of mentality, but more a determination to do everything I could to make sure my team won.  I'll also say proudly that it's where I learned that my natural tendency is not (or perhaps, was not) to half-ass things.  I remember breaking down in tears one year when my coach gave me a defensive assignment against a boy who'd undergone a serious growth spurt and outweighed me by a good twenty or thirty pounds.  I couldn't possibly imagine shirking my responsibility and given that the kid had already run roughshod over me twice in the game, the inevitable conclusion was that I'd be maimed horrifically in the execution of my duties.  As far as I recall, my coach found it endearing, and after giving me a heartfelt pep talk and a big clap on the back, sent me out to get run over by a kid twice my size for another thirty minutes.  Oddly, I don't have any negative feelings about that particular coach.

I should probably say here that I loved scoring goals.  In an unhealthy, completely unbalanced sort of way.  It really shouldn't make any well adjusted individual feel that good.  Not that I can ever really remember doing it.  The only goal I remember ever scoring was when I was in my first year of high school.  I was one of two juniors called up to the senior squad (an achievement in itself, one of the guys on the team was invited to try out for the local semi-pro team right out of high school), I got a pity sub in our final game of the season, the regional quarter finals.  I was only on the field for about 5 minutes, but I was the only one on our team who managed to score, and we lost 2-1.  On the Official List of Most Satisfying Experiences, if #1 is tricking convincing my wife to marry me, and #2 is writing a novel, then #3 would have to be the time that scrawny shy kid pierced the defenses of St. Pius X's senior boys soccer team.

I've never felt as alive, or in command of myself, as when I did when I was a kid kicking that ball around.  I'm not a believer, but if it turns out there is a heaven and I get to go, I know there will be, Field of Dreams style, a soccer field in my backyard, with 21 of my soccer buddies ready to start  whenever I am.

Alas, as all great loves seem wont to do, this one met a tragic albeit protracted demise.

It was the summer after my first year of high school, and the league program I'd played in for eight or so seasons didn't have tiers for boys my age or older.  Instead of being guaranteed a spot on a team, 50-odd kids got to compete for 36 spots, 18 in Division 1 and another 18 in Division 2.  The tryouts were held jointly, and at the end of an 8 week period playing my heart out, I made two unfortunate discoveries.  The first was that the whole thing had been a sham.  Before tryouts even started, the coach had decided what the teams would be, even though more than half the guys that made the team hadn't touched a ball once in the tryouts.  The second, a realization which grew gradually over the summer, was that Division 2 was by and large considered to be a complete and utter joke.

It would take another twenty years of limping along on broken legs for the relationship to finally come to an end.  I tried to play another season with a bunch of kids whose parents didn't know what else to do with them before I couldn't handle it.  Every few years the burning need to try again would spring up (not coincidentally around World Cup time), but wading through the morass of disorganized adolescent and senior level amateur clubs always took its toll.

The effect playing the sport has had on me is so deep, that one of the few recurring dreams I've had, and one of the few dreams the meaning of which I can say I clearly understand, involves soccer.  For twenty years my subconscious used a shorthand in my dreams for when I was feeling stuck, powerless, and generally unable to affect change in my waking life: a game is about to start, I am supposed to play, but I cannot because my gear is missing.

I finally gave up trying to play two years ago.  It took three years to find a club to play with in Toronto (I'd often joke joining a soccer team in Toronto was harder than joining a secret cult), and though I got to play with some great guys over the two years I was involved with the team, it was always a breath away from collapsing.  In fact, for the last few sessions the team operated I was one of the organizers trying to keep it afloat, but we just couldn't get momentum going and kept losing quality players.  I love the sport, but running ragged for 90 minutes every week because only 7 other guys bothered to show wasn't in the cards for guy marching steadily in the opposite direction of youthful fitness.  

I called it quits the final night of the season.  Needing only a win to advance to the playoffs and a chance to win some free beer and a cheap trophy, my team fielded the minimum number of players required for the referee to allow a game to be played.  Unsurprisingly, we got hammered.  I got home, and my bag has been in the same corner since.

The soccer dreams stopped not long after my 35th birthday.

I had a dream not too long ago that I had made the first round of cuts as a goaltender trying out for a pro hockey team.  I think it's pretty easy to see what that one means, too.

Thursday, September 16, 2010

i - Day 01 – Introduction


The first thing I can remember wanting to be when I grew up was a writer.  Not in that grade 5 "I want to be an astronaut!" sort of way (which I'll admit I did), but the first inklings I had of my place in the world hinted that putting words to paper would be a good way to go.

It was grade 8, and one of the two teachers I had for that school year happened to be a fan of science fiction and fantasy, which I had discovered a year earlier thanks to an old copy of The Hobbit in my parents' library.  As it happens, I've since appropriated the book (the statute of limitations on "borrowed" having expired sometime in the nineties, I would think).  This teacher introduced me to some of the classic fantasy from the eighties, like Eddings, and got me started on the Hitchhiker's Guide to the Galaxy, and at some point during that year I discovered I enjoyed making up stories.  My first attempts were poor imitations of the books I loved, but my teacher encouraged me to continue, and over the next several years, even into university, writing courses would appear regularly in my course load.

Which is probably for the best. I appreciate the fact that high school is hard on a lot of people, but damn did I ever have a bad time of it.  I owe a complete mistrust of "the establishment" to my time in high school, thanks to my teachers', guidance counselors', and thus unavoidably my parents' total inability to figure out what the hell to do with me.  Well, except my English teachers.  Every single one of them encouraged me to write, and to write a lot. Looking back, most of my positive experiences with school involved me writing for my English teachers.

Sadly, I fell out of the habit about a decade ago, except for half year stretch seven years ago.  Work kind of sucked and working evenings meant long-ish stretches of waiting around.  So I started writing a story I'd been cooking up for a few years, and six months later I'd written a rough draft of a novel.  To this day nothing compares to the deep satisfaction I feel when I think about it.

So, I plan to do here what I never should have stopped doing.  I'm going to tell stories.  


Chapter 0 - Meme

Everything has to start somewhere, and hopefully tomorrow something starts here.


Day 01 – Introduction
Day 02 – Your first love, in great detail
Day 03 – Your parents, in great detail
Day 04 – Your music, in great detail

Day 05 – Your definition of love, in great detail
Day 06 – Your hobbies, in great detail
Day 07 – Your best friend, in great detail
Day 08 – A moment, in great detail
Day 09 – Your beliefs, in great detail
Day 10 – What you wore today, in great detail

Day 11 – Your siblings, in great detail
Day 12 – What’s in your bag, in great detail
Day 13 – Your mode of transportation, in great detail

Day 14 – Where you live, in great detail
Day 15 – Your childhood, in great detail
Day 16 – Your first kiss, in great detail
Day 17 – Your favourite memory, in great detail
Day 18 – Your favourite birthday, in great detail
Day 19 – Something you regret, in great detail
Day 20 – Your morning routine, in great detail
Day 21 – Your job and/or schooling, in great detail
Day 22 – Something that upsets you, in great detail
Day 23 – Something that makes you feel better, in great detail
Day 24 – Something that makes you cry, in great detail
Day 25 – Your sleeping habits, in great detail
Day 26 – Your fears, in great detail
Day 27 – Your favourite place, in great detail
Day 28 – Something that you miss, in great detail
Day 29 – Your favourite foods/drinks, in great detail
Day 30 – One last moment, in great detail